Who cares if you disagree?

I always believe there's a light at the end of the tunnel. Maybe, it's just the spotlight.

Shut up already.
I don't like you and you are a dick-bitch.
Go and fuck yourself.
A friend like you is just a waste of space.
I don't hate you.
But I don't like you too.
Anymore.

Oh hey there.
I miss blogging.
And writing craps.
Friends.
You just can't live without them, can we?
Yeah.
Trust is all I asked for.
And you definitely ruined it.
And the mask I'm wearing no longer fits.
And it turns into a disgusted face.

Welcome to the family.

Listening to : We Are The In Crowd - Both Sides Of The Story

My wildest dream came true. Thanks so much for coming down, Paramore. You guys are speechless.

I could not believe that I saw Paramore live in action.
The band that changed my life.
Since the day I listened to them.
When I was in Form 2.
Hayley Williams, the girl that too changed my perspective in life.
Since young, I never really had a female idol.
Well, except for my mom.
Hayley shown me something different.
She's like a firecracker. So real.
And she proves to the world and especially rock scene,
that girls can rock too.
And rock scene do not just belong to men.
Bak kata pepatah, "kecil-kecil cili padi".
I love them to death.
You guys are going to be a legend band.

And, we are all a family.
Just like what Hayley says.
19/10/2010

Who knows what could happen?

Have a firetrucking awesome day.

I'm so blank.
I need to know what other people's lives like.
So I wouldn't be alone?
I seriously can't wait for SPM to end.
It's just too much.
Everything.
Is too much.
I need a fucking holiday.
And escape for the world.
Will you care to join?

Good times make the bad times worth our time

Christofer Drew. Worshiping him.

I'm having a really bad time.
Like very.
I don't understand certain people.
When you make plans, you called them.
But when they do, you are just so invisible.
Gosh.
I'm sick of being human.

That's it.
I'm done.
Done with everything.
Goodbye, cruel world.

I'm back. And I'm glad.

So.
Out from the Internet world for 3 weeks now.
And I can't believe I survived.
Survived SPM trials too.
9 more days.
Till I'm going to have my wildest dream come true.
Paramore.
I got chills whenever there's advertisement on them.

My Facebook is giving me troubles.
Like What The Fuck?!

I need some refreshments.
So going to consider deleting Facebook.

You left me so speechless

Listening to : nevershoutnever - First Dance


I've always have great respect to single mothers.
All of them seriously need some awards.
Those wonder women.

I'm so stoked.
Beyond stoked.
I'm finally going to meet my idol.
Paramore.
Hayley Williams, here I come.
And I am going to frame the ticket.
Cause I can.

After the hurricane, comes the rainbow

Listening to : Katy Perry - Firework

Cause you're my sweet perfection.

I had a weird dream just now.
And it was so pathetic.
I woke up in the middle of my school's prom.
And found out I'm the only one who doesn't have a date.
How sad.
But seriously.
I don't give a damn.
Cause it's just a dream.
Wink.

As cliche as it sounds : people change.
And I cannot lie.
Sometimes love change them.
And for sometimes,
It became worse.
Do I even know you now?
Or am I just another person you talked to?

You are the beast of the century

Listening to : Bruno Mars - Count On Me

I'm so envy.
Of those people,
That have 194859132646525 clothes
and they complain they have nothing to wear.

Those people that got loves from everyone,
yet still complained they are unloved.

Those people who take things for granted,
just because they can.

Those lovers that cheat,
just to feel the pleasure and lust.

Those people that break promises,
just because they like to see people suffer.

Those who treat people like dirt,
just to feel more powerful.

I don't know if I'll ever find myself in their shoes.
Just probably I can make me feel better for myself.
So, let me ask you.
Do you really feel better?
You're a monster.
And I'm trapped inside your puzzle mind game.

You are I

Listening to : nevershoutnever - Harmony

Imma reach there. Someday.

I get inspired.
After seeing such good human being.
Life isn't the same anymore.
Castles need to fall.
Prince Charming is dead.
Who cares about the lifeless princess?

Holidays are here.
Trials are coming up.
I'm sick.

And I'm in love with Christofer Drew.
We need more of him in this world.
That boy is one heck a genius.

To write this stupid letter to you

Listening to : The Friday Night Boys - Permanent Heartbreak

I'm so better off with this guy. Blake Hernage.

I miss us being normal friends again.
Things get so awkward now.
Do you know the things I wish you won't know?
I'm gonna pretend that you don't know.
Cause I am a pretender.
And I'm fooling myself out.

Bought a top today.
Plain orange sleeveless top.
Planning to buy a fabric marker.
But what phrase to write.
"Hiding under your shaded eyelashes and bubblegum smile".
Copyrighted by me.
I figured that shit out.

Cause when heart breaks, they don't break even

Listening to : VersaEmerge - Past Praying For

Would you? Cause I'm a little lonely.

This is so weird.
I have tons of stuffs to write,
but when I'm here, everything goes blank.
I wish to vlog instead of blog.
But then people will throw rotten eggs at me.
Suckers.

I'm annoying?
Get a life, dude.
You're as annoying as your Mom.
Ok, maybe the Mom's jokes do not really work for me.
Correction :
You're as annoying as a sad bulldog that's trying to get a boner.
Hah.

I'm not strong.
And I'm not a happy-go-lucky type.
and fuck this life.
I stink in school.
But He stinks more.
Douche nozzle.

Not my type

"No shirt
hot bod.
His, that is.
So why did
I break out in
a sweat?

No shoes
barefoot,
bare chest, with
a bare, baby face
to make the
angels sing.

Nothing
but ragged
cut-offs,
hugging a
tawny six pack,
and a smile.

No pin-up
pretty boy
could touch,
a smile that
zapped ever cell.
He was definitely

not my type. "

-Crank ; Ellen Hopkins

As we were so perfect

Listening to: nevershoutnever - Bohemian Rhapsody

Rockstar + Cereal = REJOICE!

Here I am.
Staring at this blank page.
What should I write?
I need a transplant.
Self-esteem transplant.
And leg extension.
I'm so unhappy about myself.

Looking at very young couples make me smile.
Are they even legal to couple up?
Puppy loves.
God bless them.

Facebook is getting creepier by days.
Privacy is so overrated.
I need to sleep.
Or I'll look like zombie.
Just like a zombie.
Smart.

Do I make it that easy to walk in and out of my life?

Listening to : A Fine Frenzy - Almost Lover

Just because I choose not to dive, it doesn't mean I don't know how to swim.

10 bucks for anyone who can guess the meaning of the statement.
I just love being weird.You want to play?
Fine, I'll play with you.
And see who gets hurt at the end of the day.

Currently addicted to A Fine Frenzy's Almost Lover.
The lyrics are wonderful.
I love how it works.
On me.

The class's photoshoot was electrifying.
So going to miss each and everyone of you.Yeah.
Nothing emo in this blog.
Except the song.
Hah

Should have known you bring me heartache.
Almost lovers always do.

There's a vulture over my shoulder

Listening to : VersaEmerge - Fixed At Zero

Fave picture off ANTM. I love this girl, Katarzyna.

Have you ever experienced a day?
Where everything is crappy,
and suddenly everything changes?
FML.
Feel like eating crab now.

I'm so worried.
What if everyone finds out.
I'm scare.
Of what people might think.
Puss.