Panic at the Disco - the band that had truely changed my life

these foursome had revolved around my life. hate to say goodbye. especially you, ryan.

Listening to: Panic at the Disco's rerun

i'm devastated.
i can't lie.
i wanted to cry. maybe i'm too upset for my tears to appear.
i still can't believe this.
worse than MJ's news. i shouldnt compare those.
this is like the end of the world.
fuck. someone wake me up.
Panic at the Disco.
my fave band ever. and they are breaking up?
no. two of the members are leaving.
Ryan Ross and Jon Walker.
yes, that Ryan Ross.
that dude that make my heart skip a beat.
that dude that inspired me to write eccentric poems.
that dude that inspired me eye make-up.
that dude that loves his band more than anything else.
and yet, he's leaving.
i used to imagine they will be a legendary band. but that's not going to happen.
they started to be part of my life when i was 13.
their music saved me.
exaggerating? fuck no.
i feel like a part of me is breaking off.
i even skipped school to get my hands off their latest album during the release day.
one thing i regretted is not going to their concert here last year.
who would have thought it's their last concert here.
life is full of surprises.
Brendon Urie. Ryan Ross. Jon Walker. Spencer Smith.
you guys have changed my life.
To Ryan and Jon: i wish you guys the best.
To Brendon and Spencer: keep making Panic at the Disco alive!
i love you guys no matter what. and i'm here to stay.

Panic at the Disco's music lives on

this few weeks had been so emotional.
i want to be stronger tomorrow than today.
can i?